tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29776248873325027692024-02-18T22:41:03.531-06:00Just me in NEJeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-74443358443105400492012-06-13T00:36:00.002-05:002012-06-13T00:36:18.260-05:00All Days should be like this.Well since I'm off work this week I decided to try my hand at smoking some meat on my grill. My main intention was to just cook up some brisket and pork ribs but I went a little overboard lol! By the time Patrick got off work and came over I had two racks of ribs, four pounds of brisket, and a big pan of corn bread for just the two of us. Needless to say we ate like kings tonight! Since we both felt guilty for eating too much my dog Trea ended getting a surprise trip to the dog run and trust me the walk felt really good.<br />
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After we got home the conversation turned to if other people cook like we do? Patrick is always giving me shit and telling me that he is afraid to cook for me because he doesn't think his food can compete with what I make. The boy is full of shit though because he is a lot better at making breakfast then I will ever be. I did feel sort of sorry for my younger sister though. The poor girl just finished eating a frozen chicken patty when I came in with all the bbq. I offered her some and she looked like a whipped puppy when she told me she was full from her "supper". <br />
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Hands down though the best part of the night was spending time with the BF and all the "benefits" (wink, wink) that come with it.<br />
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Night all...Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-43540902188051705252012-06-12T02:34:00.000-05:002012-06-12T02:34:14.692-05:00No sleep...Yet again it's 2:30am and I'm still up... For some reason I haven't been able to sleep the last few nights. My dog Trea seems to be having no problem what so ever though LOL. He is just snoring away back in my bedroom while I sit in the living room watching the Breakfast Club on Cinemax. Good thing I'm off work this week.Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-30731205162721692462012-06-08T15:08:00.000-05:002012-06-08T15:08:03.339-05:00The new me!So where has Jeff been? Well I said the hell with where my life was going and I made some changes. I put a profile out on Match and found a wonderful boyfriend named Patrick. We have been seeing each other since January of this year and I couldn't be happier.<br />
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I am out of the closet for good now and for the life of me can't figure out why I didn't come out sooner. I had always thought that my family and friends would be horribly disappointed in me for being gay. Well that was totally not true. Granted there have been some tough times and some people I told were sort of freaked out, but overall life is good now.<br />
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So since I'm out in my personal life this blog is going to reflect that from now on. I am an open book now!Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com2Lincoln, NE, USA40.806862 -96.68167940.7107115 -96.8396075 40.9030125 -96.5237505tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-37082492577470422082011-09-15T22:15:00.002-05:002011-09-15T22:21:22.189-05:00So I made up my mind and decided to do a little online dating.<br /><br />Lots of good looking guys in my area and I have decided if anyone who doesn't know I'm gay comes across my profile I will deal with it then. I think it will be easier to come out once I have met someone who will support me.<br /><br />Things are looking up! :-)Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-26392345527289475502011-09-13T17:37:00.002-05:002011-09-13T17:42:12.997-05:00I need a vacation!For those of you who follow my poor blog I apologize for the lack of posts. People have been let go from both of my jobs and I have been super busy the last few months.<br /><br />All is well here in my neck of the woods and I still haven't come out at work. I think I'm going to do a little online dating since I'm not having a lot of luck just meeting someone.<br /><br />Well this is going to be a short post because I have to get to a flag football game!<br /><br />ByeJeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-79683664973525305662011-06-14T23:39:00.004-05:002011-06-14T23:53:25.259-05:00To be or not to be out?I'm seriously thinking of coming out at work, but it might cause more harm then good. I work in the construction industry and the majority of the guys I work with are REAL old school. I know that they can't fire me for being gay, but I need to come out so these guys can know the real me.<br /><br />One of the temp guys is gay (totally not my type lol!), and out to 3 or 4 guys at the shop, yet those guys don't seem to have a problem with it. If I come out and all goes south I couldn't afford to leave this job so what should I do?Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-50261265147760840562011-06-06T19:53:00.002-05:002011-06-06T20:00:46.966-05:00Some days working outside for a living has its benefits, but it was in the high 90's today and I am beat. My dog must have had a rough day also since he was in his pool napping when I got home and then went right to sleep when I let him in the house.<br /><br />I will say that the heat is bringing out the hotties though in droves. Seems like I can't turn a corner in this town without seeing a good looking guy wearing only a pair of gym shorts. Seeing that kind of stuff can drive a guy to go mad!Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-69249306912152361062011-06-02T20:35:00.002-05:002011-06-02T20:52:28.477-05:00Still aroundI had totally forgot about this blog until I received a comment to my last post LOL!<br /><br />Well I am still in Nebraska and all is well now. A few months after my last post I lost my job and was out of work for about six months. I know that sounds bad, but it literally saved my life. Once I as out of that hell hole I called my job I realized that it was that job that was the cause of my depression. I did some soul searching in those six months and ended up casting away all of my troubles and found a new job in the process.<br /><br />As for the "in closet" issue I am out to a select group of people and am doing quite well. The first person I told flipped out and wouldn't believe me and ended up having to call another friend over to see what he thought. He was like "Duh? How could you not know?" and then we all laughed about it for a while. Now I need to find a good man to share my life with!<br /><br />I will post regularly now for those of you follow along...Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-90890121849551675312008-03-13T22:57:00.003-05:002008-03-13T23:18:53.088-05:00Ya I 'm still alive.... almostSorry for the lack of posts lately. As if anyone really reads this other than me. I have been in a bad way lately and am really depressed right now. I am stuck in the " why me?" and "what did I ever do to deserve this?" mood. I am hoping that by posting this it might get me out of this funk, so here we go.<br /><br />Why is it when ever things start to go good for me something comes up and just punches me in the gut? Why is it that no matter how much effort I put in at my job i am still labeled as a slacker that can do nothing right? I have all this useful knowledge in my head that nobody cares about. I aspire to be more and work to hard achieve my goals, yet I can not catch break.<br /><br />Everyone says I need to keep a positive attitude and things will change.<br /><br />When will thing change?<br /><br />So many questions with no answers in sight.<br /><br />I am going to go to bed now and hope for a better day when I wake. Actually I want to find a hot guy on Saturday and get laid.<br /><br />Now that would fix a lot of my issues.Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-40762704176557122632008-02-15T21:59:00.002-06:002008-02-15T22:17:48.166-06:00Alpha Dog<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlnI5DOqqgQF47J2OZ6lokmq2eETV1flh8JuyhhXQW8A_Wl0p-lsVFrK0B3ePnJad0GDih9xAq-zFMkohzsniEPYfaoAxljxFe1ysmYuScgIOUb9UDB47AryiLV_wY3T6QCV2oWllmdv2N/s1600-h/alpha-dog-poster-3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlnI5DOqqgQF47J2OZ6lokmq2eETV1flh8JuyhhXQW8A_Wl0p-lsVFrK0B3ePnJad0GDih9xAq-zFMkohzsniEPYfaoAxljxFe1ysmYuScgIOUb9UDB47AryiLV_wY3T6QCV2oWllmdv2N/s320/alpha-dog-poster-3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5167423494806055810" border="0" /></a><br />I have been using my new HD-DVR like crazy lately and happened to watch Alpha Dog tonight. I had been told that it was an ok movie and wasn't anything to write home about.<br /><br />Ya, I liked it a lot. I am a big Bruce Willis fan and have loved Ben Foster since he was in Six Feet Under. I am also a big fan of Anton Yelchin he has only been in a few main stream films, but is showing up a lot more often now.<br /><br />If you haven't seen this yet I advise you take a peek. I think you will enjoy it just as I did.Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-54389219642217828202008-02-15T18:05:00.002-06:002008-02-15T18:21:50.021-06:00Work EthicWhen I was hired for my job I knew that there would be times when I would have to put in more than 40 hours a week. I hold a salaried position so I would prefer to not work more than 40 hours. Today one of the guys quit stating that he was working too many hours. I thought to myself, too many hours? He puts in less than I do, has less responsibility and was paid more than me.<br /><br />So it brings me to wonder where has the good old fashion work ethic gone to? I hear about people quitting their jobs all the time, with no new job lined up to go to. How do people do this? Now I don't live paycheck to paycheck and have some money saved up, but I never could quit my job without having a new one lined up.<br /><br />I guess the part of this guy quitting that bugs me the most is I know that I am going to have to fill the void. Maybe I will get lucky and get a raise out of the deal, but more than likely I will just get stuck with the extra work load.<br /><br />Well I feel better now that I have put my little rant out so I think I will go surf the net for some new pics to add to my collection.<br /><br />JesterJeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-56629594762964337412008-02-13T22:20:00.003-06:002008-02-13T22:24:50.783-06:00have a nice Valentine's Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO1Du42vGEmOc-svLkxKophiBT390l1zMPaY0Hv8iZykthvo-YGNAlLNzuG34eY4zQBepiDA56WJ4v09VuirAkOkP1GyH9QrMPhjPfs3ATtkYXYhBD_sfakBlUu5PhWE75o9ObIrFsUZ7E/s1600-h/309.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO1Du42vGEmOc-svLkxKophiBT390l1zMPaY0Hv8iZykthvo-YGNAlLNzuG34eY4zQBepiDA56WJ4v09VuirAkOkP1GyH9QrMPhjPfs3ATtkYXYhBD_sfakBlUu5PhWE75o9ObIrFsUZ7E/s400/309.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5166687088303418226" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Here is my Valentine.... Well a guy can dream right?Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-32847313081438658062008-02-13T18:42:00.002-06:002008-02-13T18:56:44.221-06:00Dan is back!!One of the blogs I read frequently is http://daninokc.blogspot.com/. I really enjoy following Dan in his travels and the man has some great fashion advice.<br /><br />Dan, as am I, is not out of the closet to many people and recently some one he knows ran across his blog. From what I gather this person flipped and Dan had to take a step back and consider some things. During this time his blog was down and i was not sure that he would be back.<br /><br />He is now back up and running, but now I am wondering what would I do if put into the same situation. I guess it would depend on who the person was. I think my family would be accepting, but I don't know for sure. At this junction in time I am going to keep on posting and see what happens.<br /><br />JesterJeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-29139855536087531762008-02-12T18:03:00.000-06:002008-02-12T18:14:24.711-06:00Is this thing still up?It has been so long since my last post I almost forgot that I had a blog!<br /><br />For anyone who cares , it has been crazy time since my last post. The holidays were total crap, and my job is going to be the death of me.<br /><br />One good a note though, my cousin and his wife finally had their twins. Those girls are so cute right now! Makes me long for a partner and some kids. Oh wait, I don't want kids, I have the crazy dog to deal with.<br /><br />I start my bowling league tonight. I still haven't figured out how I got roped into that one. Should be fun though. I haven't bowled in some time and had to dust the old ball and shoes off. Oh well I guess if I make a fool of myself it will give me something to talk about at work.<br /><br />I will try to post here more often since my laptop is fixed and I am mobile again.<br /><br />JesterJeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-57102827893824952262007-09-06T21:52:00.000-05:002007-09-06T22:45:24.807-05:00Welcome back boys!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrk3hyphenhyphenNc5X5ZTpfaWHxMaydhLsSUVUqbGYCPT2tGo-3-beROM2oeYOOhVgDpwc90LEJZQRTXFNKoxOM1pEgLEkCNL4RikyoGawmpctNYf8NPawa0aRT2zwsmrYRszsZbwKb5EAy5QyR4LN/s1600-h/212.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrk3hyphenhyphenNc5X5ZTpfaWHxMaydhLsSUVUqbGYCPT2tGo-3-beROM2oeYOOhVgDpwc90LEJZQRTXFNKoxOM1pEgLEkCNL4RikyoGawmpctNYf8NPawa0aRT2zwsmrYRszsZbwKb5EAy5QyR4LN/s320/212.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5107296573986854386" border="0" /></a><br />I love it when college is back in session! I drive by two of the local college campuses each day coming and going to work. I see at least two good looking guys every trip. It makes me long for my own college days. I think I self supported the Miller Brewing Company those first few years. I miss school more now since I have to drive by campus so often. Oh don't get me wrong now, I was happy to be done, but I think I should have stayed and received my Bachelors. I know I can still go back, but that would require more effort then I can handle right now. At this point in time I am happy to have my nights free to spend with the dog.<br /><br />I do like driving by campus though. On my way home today there was a group of guys jogging. It has been in the low 90's lately so these guys were looking nice and shiny. Not a single one was wearing a shirt and all were in peak condition. Made me want to go to the gym and work off the sandwich I had at lunch. That is one of the downfalls of hot jogger guys, they make me feel like a tub of goo. I am not overweight though. Hell if anything I could stand to put on a few pounds. None the less I still wanted to pull over and load all the guys into the back of my truck and bring them all home with me. Maybe I'll get lucky and see one, or all, of them downtown at the bar this weekend. I could only hope.Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977624887332502769.post-51172394754261495582007-09-05T20:38:00.000-05:002007-09-05T20:59:00.118-05:00Time for the real me to emerge!So here I am starting my transition into an openly gay life. I am going to have to take baby steps with the coming out process though. I wish however that I could just wakeup tomorrow and everyone would know and would be happy for me. A guy can dream can't he?<br /><br />Now a little about me.<br />I am from a small town in central Nebraska. I have loving parents and a large family. However my family is Catholic and if I was to come out right this minute I would probably be shunned for the rest of my life. Well maybe not, but my mom would faint for sure. I have hinted about gay topics just to get a feel for where they sit. It has not been positive.<br /><br />I do however go out to the local gay bar and I have slept with other men, so I am definitely gay. I am also proud that I am gay. I wish I could be out publicly though. I am not out at work but I don't come out and say that I am not into women. All the ladies in the office think I need to settle down with a nice girl, hell one even tried to set me up on a date with her daughter. I am not ashamed to be seen at the bar or in public with another man so what is the big deal with me coming out to everyone?Jeff in NEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17198908458069132764noreply@blogger.com0